Met someone today..I'm not sure whether it was a wrong meeting..but you say it is..you said I changed..you said I'm no longer the Hui Ping you used to know..yes..I'm changing..well I think I'm better off this way..you know why so don't ask me why..somethings just can't be done..its really hurting to hurt you..yet you always force me to hurt you..you said you don't even wanna be frenz with me..everything you said..word by word they pierced straight into my heart one by one..

It's so painful..so so painful..I need a place to hide to recuperate..I don't need all the nonsense to bring my life down..

for sister and I..

Its just nights of weep
Walking thru with bare feet
It hurts so much on the rocky path
Leaving the blood stains on the path
Dark experiences and shadowed memories paint
Hoping to see the sun shine on us again

Life is never fair..
Life is never perfect..
Learning on the journey of life..
Hoping to see a better me..

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Went gym-ing with Josie..celebrated her birthday..I was trying so hard to drag the time..well..at last I gave up and we went to New York x2..!!Yeah..first time there..and I love the Candy Floss..a time when i feel like a kid..and Josie like her heels!!the size fits perfectly..!!yuppie!!

Getting on with life..I thought I fall for you..but I guess..it was just a crush..someone who accompanied me through the journey back..I thought I fell into another well..in actual fact..I haven got out of the well I fell into..and I fell deep..so deep..I finally realized that I'm still deeply in love with you..teach me how to get out..

I just saw you online..and I realized I miss you so much..so much..I don't cry..not anymore..till I saw your display pic..and I know you are still in my heart..no one ever entered..and you never got out..But I have to hold through..I tried to avoid going out with you..for I know I will be in your cuddle once again..that hand I used to hold..that shoulder I used to lie on..they are no longer mine..Long lost..I dun want to get back..cos I know if I give in..It wont be easy for me to get out..what hurts the most?this is it..I dont think it matters cos you were the one initiated it..

How much I want you..
How much I need you..
How much I miss you..
How much I love you..
Everything of you..
How can I let them go..
~~Holding on..hoping not to fall deeper..~~

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STUPID MOTHER'S DAY!!i will not celebrate this day again..my mummy love to eat durian..I'm very broke..but i thought just treat her eat..1kg $5..i bought 2 at $16..around 3kg plus..whatever..they were damn heavy and i only had one hand available to carry it back home..cant change hand either..brought all the way back home..i got SCOLDING from my parents..my father scolded me for buying durian..my mummy scolded me for buying durian which comes from Thailand..

I dunno how to choose durian and do not know what is a good one..i relied on the uncle to choose from me..I lead the uncle to give me good ones as my mummy like to eat and today's mother's day..so i asked him please please find good ones for me..so much so for pleading and carrying all the way back and using my own allowance that i earned which i barely or dun even have ENOUGH to buy the durians for her to eat..no one appreciated..

Fcuked up..of cos..i felt better when my mummy came to give me a hug in the end and said thank you..at least whatever i did was appreciated..

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First I wanna say HIP HIP HOORAY!!! for i got e heaviest load off my head!!!IPP REPORT!! been busy over it and losing slp over it..hahas..my worst fear is gone to MR CHAN..lol..Haven been blogging cos Im waiting for e photos to arrive at my mailbox!!my colleagues are jus too busy to upload e photo..hence i gotta jus wait then i can blogg about my last day at ipp in a complete way..hahas..!!

And Im realli broke..so SO BROKE..the notes and textbook is killing me..add up will cos $100??im surviving on cup noodles..no matter how broke i m..i will not ask money from my parents..well at least i can slim down cos im eating lesser..hahas..

yeah i slim down by 700 gram aft blood donation!!finally i pluck out my courage to donate blood..well..i will say..it seriously aint painful..and i hv a great sense of fulfillment aft donating for i will save one's life..i belongs to rare blood type lei!!lol..i wonder who's life am i gonna save??

And..today..i was supposed to have lunch with Xinhui and Shirley..I woke up at 10..was supposed to meet them at 11..den my mummy was mopping e floor..hence i couldnt move outside my room..therefore i asked them to go ahead without me..also cos i can save money n eat at home..im left with $11 in my wallet n $5 in my bank to survive till next end of week..and I have yet bought all the books that are compulsory..

Well..Im hoping to take up another job..either as a tutor or at St.anderson ice cream..well if i realli work at st. anderson ice cream..frenz..do visit me!!lol..cos i will b damn bored??my life is about study n working..so i treasure every sec that i get to play or rest!!I dun tink i get the chance to enjoy much either for teachers are alrd flooding us with ICA projects!!arghx..

I jus wished I had one day off from everything and stay with the stars..and frenz i love and have fun with..

Labels: I chose not to understand..

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我
Tan Hui Ping
Born 21st Sept 1987
Virgo
Stubborn, Short-term memory lost, Sensitive, Pessimistic, Good listener

珍惜

Each and everyone that came across my life
Evey moment regardless of good or bad moments
Everything that I have

讨厌

Being alone
Insects
Backstabbers
Being forgetful

1.My Girl Crystal ball
2.PDA phone
3.PSP RED
4.MacBook Pro
5.External hard-disk
6.Passport
7.Car Liscense
8.Canon camera
9.MI BMW car

-== Say what?! ==-

-=Goals 2007=-

Waist of 26 inch (Don't even think of how much it is NOW!!)

UP UP my GPA to 3.5 (GPA is 3 NOW)

Enter University-hopefully SMU (If not, work n study part-time)

Pursue a Banking & Finance Degree (Don't think it's a 3min dream)

Nothing is impossible,for it will be impossible when you don't even try.

-== Beloved ==-

Audrey
Joanna
Sister-Irene
Biao Mei-Xin Hui
Kylie-Josie
Cousin-Li Ting
ShopShop!!
Sahara-SBM CLUB VP
Sisters-Irene n Ben
Desmond
Caden Cecelia-Buddy
Chee Geok-missed!




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