Paper was tricky
My eyes were playing a fool
My ears did not
B-I-T-C-H
Loud enough for me to hear
It bothered me
But not after knowing I did nothing

You know the definition of B-I-T-C-H?

1.	a female dog.

2.	a female of canines generally.

3.	Slang. a. a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman. b. a lewd woman.

4.	Slang. a. a complaint. b. anything difficult or unpleasant: The test was a bitch. c. anything memorable, esp. something exceptionally good: That last big party he threw was a real bitch.

Which one? 3rd? I don't seem to match that. I'm sorry.
I was thinking perhaps I should keep a distant.
On second thought, why should I?
Cos I am already losing one friendship cos of you?

When you called me that
I'm sorry to say that it did not hurt
Not only did it not hurt me
It was a childish act

What hurts the most?
Sorry it wasn't cos of you.
But cos of MY BUDDY.

Buddy:

Did you treasure this buddy-ship?
Did you remember that your buddy is still around?
Forget the buddy days cos that is not the main point.
The main point here is HER.
Cos of telling my friend that you two msged?
It's such a small matter
which doesn't affect anything at all.
Why did you let it affect us?

Why must HER be the cause?
Yes I admit I was afraid of losing my buddy
But it was because I cared too much
Is caring and being bothered by losing a buddy too much?

I'm disappointed. You did not choose to talk to me.
Miscommunication and her came in between us.

Buddy, I knew we were going further and further apart. I tried to talk to you, but it was of no use. I admit I'm tired in asking and finding out myself, but I never give up you know. Till just now when we chatted, I did not give up.

But why? Why must you be the one who knew she scolded me a BITCH? And still agree that I am? Just cos there's no other words? That's not a good reason. Even how pissed you are, you shouldn't have agreed. Cos I will never say anything that bad about you. Not even when you are, cos there are always better words and ways of saying.

You know how hurt I was to see it with my own eyes that you agreed? That my own buddy whom I know for so long? That understand me? Agreed that I am a bitch? I told you to stop going on, I stopped replying cos I am lost for words.

No friend ever broke my heart to this extend.
For now, concentration on my last paper.

Labels: Nothing I can do

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Okay! I'm blogging because someone somewhere out there with the name of Jahrell asked me where is the credits?! Haha..Okay here goes---> Thank you Jahrell for the Poem and the soundtracks from soundtracks! Yup!

Tuesday 14th August 2007

Went to Sentosa by Sentosa Express with Audrey.We were tanning at Palawan Beach.OMG~
11plus SUN IS so DAMN hot!It was raining heavily after bathing.And our next stop--Vivo City.Walked around and decided to grab a donut. After queuing for less than 30 mins..We got a donut each! First time buying donut! Haha..So happy. But so paiseh! Cos everyone was buying in dozens except for us! (Photos will be updated soon~)

Then went to find Peifen and Jahrell at PS. Oh ya! Sorry for ps-ing Audrey! But my friend needed me more! So :) I know you wil understand. Hmmm..We went KFC for dinner!! Finally got my KFC!! Was supposed to go HMV to find secrets's poster! But sadd-ed! I guess I just have to wait for the soundtrack and movie release in DVD! Next stop---> POOL! waited for Buddy's arrival..And you see our expert Pool player Peifen trashing everyone of us! Haha seriously it's just holes..! But she always goes..Hold the cue nearer to your waist! Lol..Kk sent Peifen home and home sweet home for us!

Monday to Friday except for the above day! 13th,15th-17th August 2007

Mugging in school library at the center wing!Well it's kind of a strange study group which consists of Delphi, Josie and me? We also have additional good companies like Amelia, Janice and Shuai Sheng? And I am enjoying every second to core! The in between laughters..our Lunch and tea break! Our messy table..the smuggling of snacks! I will miss it after the exams and look forward to them in the coming exam for next semester! Haha

Thursday 16th August 2007

After mugging~ To city hall with Jahrell! We went looking for her pants and the cardigan! And she got her black pants which is part of the plan for her birthday? Haha went Carrefour to take a look at the keyboard I always wanted cos it teaches me how to play Canon! And guess what? I guess no one is buying? It dropped from $199-$129! Should I wait longer? Oh anyway..I do agree it's a romantic thing to do when two person plays a melody together? For those who watched Secrets should know :) I'm mastering the melody.

Friday 17th August 2007

Was supposed to watch fireworks with Jahrell and Peifen after Jahrell's exam! But Peifen couldn't make it! Yupp! Then in the end Jahrell went with me alone..And I made a new friend! Eileen who was her primary and secondary school friend! We can kinda talk :) I'm glad. Apologies for stoning! But thanks for their company! The fireworks was very nice! As usual..short and sweet. Never fails to touch me by their beauty. It's amazing how the fireworks beautify the night! :)

Monday 20th August 2007

I was freaking out already! I got lecture 1,2,5,6,7,8,10 to study for compensation management and my paper is at 4.30pm! Met the girls at 8am! For the first time the school library was still close when I reached school! Haha Okay! I "chiong" my memorizing and additional notes till 3pm!

And Thanks to delphi! Now the whole table of girls is using her 25 ALPHA to study! Haha. Why not if it helps right? :) Hmm.. The paper was like..look difficult..But when I was doing it.. I told myself I can't let Delphi down! And her effort in helping me understand! Haha and I bet I did not let her down! I remembered everything she said! And for the first time? I left 30mins earlier. Contented with my performance!

Two more papers to go! Jia you! Oh ya! I guess exams isn't that difficult after all? It's the company? Everyone's companion? And encouragement! And that two pen! Let's all jia you! And enjoy after this week!

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Follow the notes upon a journey.
At first sight marks one's destiny.
When the voyage comes to an end.
Return lies within hasty keys.

Yes ah! Thanks my friend that I'm able to get this poem right! :) And I'm gonna catch the movie once again. Catching it again for experiencing the love I never had..for the melody I cried for.

She cried. I hurt her once again. The fact is I don't deserve anyone. So don't be jealous.

My past, it still affect me a lot.

A friend of mine told me: I deserve to be loved. Everyone has their past. So don't be affected. What's over is over. Someone who can accept me for who I am will be worth very bit of my love.

I will take all that you said to heart. :) Thank you. Really appreciate everything you said and your company.

Labels: My past you need to accept.

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Secrets
The BEST show I have watched.
Not because it's Jay.
But because of:
1) the melodies that brought me to tears
2) the love i yearned for
3) the secret
4) how real everything seems to be

I didn't quite get what the show was about when "Xiao Yu" was talking "Xiang Lun"'s dad about what is happening in the future. But thankfully I had a Jay lover beside, so she put every piece of the puzzle in place. Thank you.

She asked him whether he will like other girls when she is not around?
His answer made her pinched him.
That 15 apples which can "cure asthma".
The ice cream.
The playing of the piano.
Listening to their favorite song.
She told him to cherish every moments with her.
And he did.
She asked him why does he like to play single-handedly?
He replied another was to hold her hand.
The truth.
He was devastated.
The return lies within the haste of the keys..(If i remembered wrongly?)
How fast he played the piano..How fast the keys went..
The melody brought him to her.

If melody could bring one to the one they loved, I will learn.
Cos it's what I yearned for.

Labels: Secrets

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YEAH!
All projects defeated with glory!
The efforts
The sleep-less nights
The tolerance
The pounds
All will be worth when we get our grades :)

I'm on my way to defeat exams! YES! My beauty sleep to get back my beautiful eyes and beautiful smile :)

I just need friends around. And I seem to have lost all. Someone said they are close at heart but can't always be beside. Still, I need company. I need fun! I need nice food! I need new clothings!

Labels: ALL OVER

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Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.
What if you got it back?

I cherish. I do not want to go my whole life collecting days searching for the one.

Did you have that "dream came true" thing? But you'd be wrong. All that happens when your dream comes true is a slow, melting realization that it wasn't what you thought.
And it won't save you?

Labels: Collecting or cherishing?

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ONE MORE PRESENTATION DOWN!ONE MORE TO GO!

CONGRATS TO MYSELF AND TEAM-MATES!
Our HRM report got A- with good company interview and skit got A+ which Daphne and my good acting skills :) Well done Girls!

Another worth being happy about! My International Business that I just wanted a pass..
and I got 44.5/75! I'm proud of myself for I put in effort. :)

Workplace Health Promotion, good comments from Ms Prema. Creativity she found in us. :)

Customer Relationship Management presentation was so stressful when each group that presented shaked their head! Well, we did well again! Teacher was very contented with the whole presentation and the information provided. No question from her at all. Just good comments. :)

Yup! So time to enjoy soon~ Actually am already starting to enjoy..starting from today! wahaha
Went to Cineleisure's Suki Sushi! Yummy! each plate 10 cent cheaper though I need not take out my wallet. But I save other people's wallet. :)
Went to Far East..Desert time! Hee..Superb! The mango..the durian..hmm!! Simply heavenly. Haha~ Wanted to eat more. But? Yup they refrained me. Cos my cough has yet to recover! *cries! After enjoying the heavenly desert..Supposed to shop. But empty-handed again! sigh~

Anyways..! Yes. Arcade time. I guess with me, never fail to be at arcade! Muhaha
Broke the high score with my friend! yes! Two machines of our high score! 453 followed by 468! It was a GREAT LET OUT! Letting out for nothing :) But feels good sweating so much that it was dripping?! hahaha I shall play more often in that way.

The only crazy way I can be.

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Another suicide. Not my friend. But my friend's friend.

Imagine your bedroom as the store-room when two of your other brother slept in a nice cozy bed room EACH.
Imagine being look down upon when your two other brothers studied in JC and Poly.
Imagine failing in your life so much that even your mum don't show her love for you.

That's his life. And it ended with a jump over a 16th storey block. It brought to him much pain when he landed on a car and not dead. But the pain wasn't as much as the pain he felt in his life. He wasn't dead. He was brave to even bring his feet off the ground. To be blowing bubbles with his saliver.

He landed on that car alive. With broken legs and eyes wide open. His mum called the ambulance. Cleaned his blood around him. After the cleaning, he closed his eyes smiling. Never will he suffer from that pain again.

But I guess he is contented with the last moment with his mum.

Death may be the only option to end the pain. But it too bring pain to people around. It must never be the solution to solve problem.

And his death sort of dawn on me that, everyone need someone to love and care for them. Without it, one simply can't survive. It was never hard to shower someone your love and concern? Cos you will never know what is the person thinking and what he/she is gonna do the next second. You could have saved one life. :)

Labels: care and concern, Love

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Ever tried so hard to be someone you couldn't?
Ever tried not to be yourself but you are still you?
Ever tried letting things go right and it went left?

This ever never end..And I ever tried.

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BEEN
...really caught up with projects that piled up like MT EVEREST!
...down with fever several times when cold caught me!
...having a sexy voice for 5days!
...hoping for a day when I can enjoy myself to the fullest not needing to worry about anything else.

I AM
...two days away from my PIZZA!
...one week away from being a sleeping beauty!
...one week and five days from study week!
...two weeks and five days from 3 exams!
...three weeks and five days from ENJOYING MYSELF TO THE FULLEST!

Hahaha. Can I enjoy a bit earlier before the exams come?! I hope so!
**HINT HINT to my friends**
Anyone?

Labels: ONE STEP CLOSER...

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我
Tan Hui Ping
Born 21st Sept 1987
Virgo
Stubborn, Short-term memory lost, Sensitive, Pessimistic, Good listener

珍惜

Each and everyone that came across my life
Evey moment regardless of good or bad moments
Everything that I have

讨厌

Being alone
Insects
Backstabbers
Being forgetful

1.My Girl Crystal ball
2.PDA phone
3.PSP RED
4.MacBook Pro
5.External hard-disk
6.Passport
7.Car Liscense
8.Canon camera
9.MI BMW car

-== Say what?! ==-

-=Goals 2007=-

Waist of 26 inch (Don't even think of how much it is NOW!!)

UP UP my GPA to 3.5 (GPA is 3 NOW)

Enter University-hopefully SMU (If not, work n study part-time)

Pursue a Banking & Finance Degree (Don't think it's a 3min dream)

Nothing is impossible,for it will be impossible when you don't even try.

-== Beloved ==-

Audrey
Joanna
Sister-Irene
Biao Mei-Xin Hui
Kylie-Josie
Cousin-Li Ting
ShopShop!!
Sahara-SBM CLUB VP
Sisters-Irene n Ben
Desmond
Caden Cecelia-Buddy
Chee Geok-missed!




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