Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Just finishing mapling. Finally have the courage to blog about this. I guess I'm emo-ing in the middle of the night yeah?(The 24Hr Supper place, arcade, hangout at the playground or fast-food restaurants)Flashbacks of the past, everything is happening just too fast.The supper-place we used to go, seems like a far-away place I will never go.Much thoughts that I can't put into words, lost is still the only word.Never can imagine why you could think that way of me. Always wandered why there was no apology. And you don't even remember my birthday. Don't you care for this friendship at all? It meant so much to me, what is it to you?Because of that someone who came in your life and be close to you for a while, who thought that I was trying to break them up, who fucking trying to get close to you and tag my friend for nothing! All the small movements she have, everything! And you just know her, you don't understand her! You were supposed to know me better, to understand me better! And you! Believing in hypocrite and put our friendship at risk. And yes, everything is destroyed cos of her bloody movements and mouth.I told myself, she is not worth. And you who stood by her, is not worth too. The fact is I care so much. I tried my best not to bother. But I just can't. Cos I was the one who give you the name Caden. I was the one who walked through with you. Not her. Does she still keep close contact with you? I doubt. Even if she does, she doesn't deserve a friend like you.Cos of her, for nothing I did.I lost a buddy, the life I used to lead, the group of friends I used to hang out with.I'm putting a closure to this. The only time I blurt out my true feelings.I still care. Cos all that matter was you, our friendship. It's a challenge I lost. I wished things could be the same. I hoped.So much memories we shared, and we only have one precious photo taken. (Credit goes to Dumb dumb) :)
Once, I may not have treasured you as much and I did not know you meant so much.But you can't deny that you were a precious gift from God and no one ever can replace you.Labels: I miss you.
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